Today’s post details a little of where we are right now with this journey of infertility and since our last miscarriage in July. A big part of this post is about deciding to let go of a lot of the anger I have held and noticing a major difference this last month. I have started feeling hope again, something that I haven’t felt very much these last few months. Also, it is pregnancy and infant loss month. I am thankful for all of the women who have helped me along this journey thus far and I pray that all women going through a miscarriage will seek to help others going through the same difficult situations. I pray for anyone going through a miscarriage right now and always remember that you aren’t alone. Click here to view full post
Today’s post is a picture of the wall where Riley and Oakley’s names now are and how that has helped me to cope and grieve as well as how I have found a little bit of hope again this past month. Click here for the entire post or go to my blog in any internet browser, select Our Journey with Infertility, Memorial with Riley and Oakley.
Today’s post is about how after both of my miscarriages, I felt like my body betrayed me. To view the post in it’s entirety, click here or you can go to sharemygod.wordpress.com and then select menu option Our Journey with Infertility, Losing Oakley, Betrayed by My Body. A brief excerpt from the full post: “With the loss of Riley, I felt as though I was betrayed by my body and I felt straight up anger. I was angry because I felt as though I could not do a basic action that as a woman I am designed for. It took a few months of drowning in that anger before I started to realize that while my body betrayed me, this was a start. Riley gave me hope. Hope that one day I would concieve again but would have enough knowledge with what was wrong with my body to prevent another loss. My body betrayed me, but it also gave me a blessing, Riley. Those short few days filled mine and my husband’s heart with so much love. A love for someone I have not met yet, but will be reunited with one day and a baby that I think about regularly.”
Today is shaping up to being a difficult day. I received an email that reminded me i should be in my second trimester of pregnancy right now. Psalm 56: 8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” (NLT). Click here to view the post in it’s entirety. Here is an excerpt from today’s post. “Right now I should have a baby in my arms and I should be in my 15th week of pregnancy with Oakley. Some days, today being one of those, these losses feel like my goliath. They feel like something I can’t get past no matter how hard I try. On some days, I feel like I have cried so many tears that there is no way I have any left. I have cried over a loss that happened unexpectedly. I have cried over a loss that I was told would happen. I have cried because someone kindly asks the question, “do you have children.” I have cried because I feel as though my body betrayed me. I have cried from loneliness. I have cried tears of anger. I have cried tears from sheer grief. I have cried from walking into a room that was going to be a nursery. I have cried visualizing the children I will never meet while I am on Earth. I have cried, and I have had many tears fall.”
Today’s post is Day 27 of 31 Days of Courage. I apologize in advance for not being on top of my posts lately. I have had a wrist injury (of course to my right hand- the one I literally depend on for everything) and am just now getting the hang of writing on my phone with my left hand! Today’s verses are Isaiah 12: 1-3 and discuss the salvation that God gives us and what that means for us. To view the whole post, click here, or go to my blog, then Bible Studies, then 31 Days of Courage, then scroll to the bottom and you will see Day 27.
Today’s post is Day 26 of 31 Days of Courage. This morning has been quite a doozy and this verse serves as a reminder that there is strength and courage for me through Christ. It is a reminder that on the days where everything seems to go wrong, the Devil is simply trying to get me down and with Christ, I can back Him into a corner and be stronger than ever. To read the full post, please click here or go to my blog, Bible Studies, 31 Days of Courage, and scroll to the bottom.
Today’s post is day 20 of 31 days of courage and the verses focused on are Deuteronomy 31: 6-8. These verses come to me as a reminder that in even the worst situations, God is there for us and he can help us to have strength and courage. At the moment, my granny is battling cancer. Seeing her in pain is heart breaking and scary, but these verses help me to remember that God will help me through this and He is with her through this.
To read the post in it’s entirety, click here or go to my blog and select the menu option Bible Studies and then 31 days of courage. Today’s post will be at the bottom.