Today’s post is about how after both of my miscarriages, I felt like my body betrayed me. To view the post in it’s entirety, click here or you can go to sharemygod.wordpress.com and then select menu option Our Journey with Infertility, Losing Oakley, Betrayed by My Body. A brief excerpt from the full post: “With the loss of Riley, I felt as though I was betrayed by my body and I felt straight up anger. I was angry because I felt as though I could not do a basic action that as a woman I am designed for. It took a few months of drowning in that anger before I started to realize that while my body betrayed me, this was a start. Riley gave me hope. Hope that one day I would concieve again but would have enough knowledge with what was wrong with my body to prevent another loss. My body betrayed me, but it also gave me a blessing, Riley. Those short few days filled mine and my husband’s heart with so much love. A love for someone I have not met yet, but will be reunited with one day and a baby that I think about regularly.”
Today’s post addresses the choice to name a baby after a miscarriage. It is something that people feel differently about. Personally, it brings me to peace to have my baby have a name and it is something I was encouraged by other women who had experienced loss. To view the post in it’s entirety, click here or go to sharemygod.wordpress.com , select Our Journey With Infertilty, Losing Oakley, and finally Naming Your Baby After a Miscarriage.
Today is shaping up to being a difficult day. I received an email that reminded me i should be in my second trimester of pregnancy right now. Psalm 56: 8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” (NLT). Click here to view the post in it’s entirety. Here is an excerpt from today’s post. “Right now I should have a baby in my arms and I should be in my 15th week of pregnancy with Oakley. Some days, today being one of those, these losses feel like my goliath. They feel like something I can’t get past no matter how hard I try. On some days, I feel like I have cried so many tears that there is no way I have any left. I have cried over a loss that happened unexpectedly. I have cried over a loss that I was told would happen. I have cried because someone kindly asks the question, “do you have children.” I have cried because I feel as though my body betrayed me. I have cried from loneliness. I have cried tears of anger. I have cried tears from sheer grief. I have cried from walking into a room that was going to be a nursery. I have cried visualizing the children I will never meet while I am on Earth. I have cried, and I have had many tears fall.”
A brief exerpt from today’s post: “This past year, there have been days of absolute grief. There have been days where thinking about our loss makes it difficult to get out of bed. There have been days where I was angry at God for taking my baby away. There have been days where I was encouraged by other women going through the same day. There have been days where I felt nothing but pure joy at those few days I had with nothing but pure joy at the knowledge that I was finally pregnant.”. To read today’s post in its entirety, please click here.
Today’s post is an update on our journey with infertility. We are currently in the midst of month 29. This was the end of our first month with a new course of action for treatment and we survived Mother’s Day. You can find the entire post by clicking HERE or by going to my blog, Our Journey with Infertility, Month by Month, and TTC: Month 29.
Today’s post is part of Our Journey with Infertility is on Month 28 of this journey. Today is one of the more “intense” posts I feel I have posted because this month in particular has been difficult. To read the full post, please click here or go to my blog, Our Journey with Infertility, TTC Month by Month, Month 28.
Today’s post is Day 24 of 31 Days of Courage. We are almost to the end and ready to start a new series. Today’s verses are Psalm 28: 6-9 and to me, today is about remembering to praise God, even in the valley’s of life. That is a hard thing to do. I have experienced loss and am currently experiencing infertility. Both of these are things that I feel make it easy to want to be angry at God, but I have instead chosen to see His plan and purposes in both instances. I hope you do to.
To see the post in its entirety, please go to my blog and then to Bible Studies, 31 Days of Courage and today’s post will be at the very bottom. You can also click here. I apologize for my blog’s being spaced out lately. I am having to do the posts on my cell phone which takes a little more time.