Today’s post details a little of where we are right now with this journey of infertility and since our last miscarriage in July. A big part of this post is about deciding to let go of a lot of the anger I have held and noticing a major difference this last month. I have started feeling hope again, something that I haven’t felt very much these last few months. Also, it is pregnancy and infant loss month. I am thankful for all of the women who have helped me along this journey thus far and I pray that all women going through a miscarriage will seek to help others going through the same difficult situations. I pray for anyone going through a miscarriage right now and always remember that you aren’t alone. Click here to view full post
Today is shaping up to being a difficult day. I received an email that reminded me i should be in my second trimester of pregnancy right now. Psalm 56: 8, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” (NLT). Click here to view the post in it’s entirety. Here is an excerpt from today’s post. “Right now I should have a baby in my arms and I should be in my 15th week of pregnancy with Oakley. Some days, today being one of those, these losses feel like my goliath. They feel like something I can’t get past no matter how hard I try. On some days, I feel like I have cried so many tears that there is no way I have any left. I have cried over a loss that happened unexpectedly. I have cried over a loss that I was told would happen. I have cried because someone kindly asks the question, “do you have children.” I have cried because I feel as though my body betrayed me. I have cried from loneliness. I have cried tears of anger. I have cried tears from sheer grief. I have cried from walking into a room that was going to be a nursery. I have cried visualizing the children I will never meet while I am on Earth. I have cried, and I have had many tears fall.”
A brief exerpt from today’s post: “This past year, there have been days of absolute grief. There have been days where thinking about our loss makes it difficult to get out of bed. There have been days where I was angry at God for taking my baby away. There have been days where I was encouraged by other women going through the same day. There have been days where I felt nothing but pure joy at those few days I had with nothing but pure joy at the knowledge that I was finally pregnant.”. To read today’s post in its entirety, please click here.
Today’s post is a very difficult one for me to make. I actually spent three days writing it. This post gives some information as to how we discovered that I would lose our rainbow baby as well as some of the emotions that we felt. To read the full post, click here. One thing that helped me was a facebook group I am part of. When I made a post with my news in that group, so many women shared their experiences and shared many kind words and advice. While going through a miscarriage is a very difficult thing, and one I have experienced, this time was different. We found out that we were going to miscarry before we actually did and I do not know what I would have done without some of the women in my group reassuring me that what I was feeling was normal.
Today’s post is an update of my last post in June, our 29th month ttc. This post gives details of learning we were pregnant, some of our pregnancy, and learning we would once again miscarry. This was our second miscarriage in a year. This post is meant to help other women going through a miscarriage to know that they are not alone in what they feel as well as to help me heal and get through this loss. To view the post in it’s entirety, click here. You can also go to sharemygod.wordpress.com then to Our Journey with Infertility, Trying to Conceive Month by Month, Month 29, Month 29 Update.
Today’s post is an update on our journey with infertility. We are currently in the midst of month 29. This was the end of our first month with a new course of action for treatment and we survived Mother’s Day. You can find the entire post by clicking HERE or by going to my blog, Our Journey with Infertility, Month by Month, and TTC: Month 29.
Today’s post is about our journey with infertility and month 26. This month, we have found out a problem that has been hindering us from being able to conceive, and we have had a month and a half of charting with the Creighton method. Today’s post can be found by going to Our Journey with Infertility and then to Trying to Conceive- Month by Month or by clicking here.